to stay even-minded during pleasure and pain….

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i write because i have a world inside of me that won’t let me sleep until i release its messages and mysteries. i write because i have a deep desire to make connections with others and between things. i write because i have no choice but to write. i write because i believe beyond the shadow of a doubt that the closer i get to my own center, i may gift another with a bridge, a parachute or maybe a snorkel of some sort.

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“learning to let go should be learned before learning to get. life should be touched, not strangled. you’ve got to relax, let it happen at times, and let others move forward with it.” ~ ray bradbury

 

today i am moved to purge all of the little treasures that i have been collecting over the last few months. thankfully i have finally removed myself from the race against time. not to say i don’t get overwhelmed or cranky or flat out freaked out sometimes…but it is happening less and less. i get it now. time is an illusion designed to scare the shit out of us. no thank you! i’m more interested in finding my place in a vibration that lifts me to a higher state of being.

close your eyes and imagine a world that is yours. feel the importance of yourself. we are the agents of our own happiness. it really is quite simply up to you. i’m tired of hearing myself say, ”it’s easier said than done.” bullshit! these are the lies that we tell ourselves so that we can remain the same.

i’ve noticed that the more willing i am to ask myself uncomfortable questions. or shall is say, the more willing i become to answer them with fierce honesty, the more comfortable i become, period.

no matter how at ease i may have appeared over the years, it was a mask of survival that i designed before i knew up from down.  basically, i didn’t realize how unsafe i felt in this world until i started actually feeling safe in my own skin. i had no idea how much i tried to control outcomes and other people until i honestly evaluated my dysfunctions. i thought i was living as a spiritual warrior of some sort, but i neglected to bring god into the equation…so apparently my spirituality only existed in my mind.

 

”until your knees finally hit the floor you’re just playing at life, and on some level you’re scared because you know you’re just playing. the moment of surrender is not when life is over. it’s when it begins.” ~marianne wiliamson

 

we learn in yoga that the disease is in the mind, and that the goal is to become less addicted to outcomes; to stay even-minded during pleasure and pain. we discover that first, we are students, no matter how advanced we become at anything. we surrender to the ultimate truth that the only way we will ever transform is to practice, and the only way this will reach its highest manifestation, is by devotion. we realize that compassion for ourselves and others makes room for miracles. we feel the stillness and become less afraid of it. we breathe deeper and more often….and learn to truly honor our breath for being the carrier of life force energy– sustaining us, supporting us and carrying us to the next moment of complete and total surrender.

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our culture has taught us to complicate the shit out of things. you can choose to keep it simple.

so much love!!!!

xo, L

Hello, my name is yoga and I will change your life!

Another dream is coming true. Another wish. Another part of me is blooming and becoming…

My journey as a devoted student and teacher of yoga has begun. I had all of these profound, emotional things to say a few minutes ago. What happened? I’ve been silenced by this overwhelmingly beautiful sense of peace. There’s no way to describe it so I’m not even going to try, but I do believe that I am supposed to tell you that it is so very real. And just like everything else, the more you show up for it, the more it shows up for you!

Hello there, peace! Let me fluff your pillow and pour you a glass of wine. I will not concern myself with how long you will stay. I am just so abundantly grateful that you exist and that you are here. 

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So I’m sitting in lotus position with my hands resting gracefully on my knees, my spine was straight and my booty was planted firmly on the ground. I’m in this room with 14 people who want the same thing that I want. We have all committed ourselves fully to developing a deeper practice, strengthening our character, and letting go of whatever we need to let go of so that our highest selves can come forth. Holy shit the energy was so potent, it made me sweat. Our teachers helped us to understand that becoming a yoga teacher and guiding others comes after our own profound transformation takes place. They tried their best to prepare us for what lies ahead, making sure that we know that they are there to cradle and nurture us while also pushing us out of our comfort zones and into our potential.

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Nothing has ever done for me what yoga does for me. Bottom line! This practice requires physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional strength and balance…but most importantly, for me….FOCUSED ENERGY.

 

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“If you want to learn something, read about it. If you want to understand something, write about it. If you want to master something, teach it.” ~Yogi Bhajan

Namaste, you beautiful beings….

Love,

Lauren

”Bring your gaze to your fingertips, and recall your intention.”

One week into my yoga challenge, 5 days after a breakup, 45 minutes into my class, and I was feeling more lost and confused than ever before. I forced myself to go to this class so that I could feel good, only to spend every single second wishing it would just end already, so that I could curl up in my bed and snuggle intimately with my fearful thoughts, in the privacy of my own home.

Just when I thought I couldn’t stand another second of it, my teacher spoke these words: ”Bring your gaze to your fingertips, and recall your intention.” I was brought to my knees, back to my center and into my body so quickly, it felt like magic, and it was.  The magic was and always is me! Universal wisdom is being spoken around us, to us and through us, all day, every day. What becomes of this wisdom is up to you! I decided to let it change everything for me.

I had forgotten my intention; this is why I was suffering. I think I’m finally getting it. Nothing feels right when I’m not in my center. Instead of allowing negative thoughts and emotions to take me down, I can use them as a tool, a reminder that I am not in my center. Abraham-Hicks refers to this practice as the emotional guidance system. Our only job is to observe and reach for better feeling thoughts.

Today I am simply overwhelmed with gratitude for the endless well of universal wisdom and guidance that is available to us whenever we want it.

Namaste,

L

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Four days into my cleanse–my new chapter, and I have decided that it deserves a title: Taking My Power Back, Trusting the Process, and Loving Myself Into the Magic of Life.

The truth: I’ve been struggling. It was as if all of my hard work, self discoveries and copious amounts of downloaded universal wisdom went out the window for a while. I found myself completely overwhelmed by life’s challenges. My body was tense, my mind was turning into a monster, and my heart felt weak and afraid to move forward. I fell asleep!

One night last week I decided to stay in and surf Netflix for a dramatic show or film– something to help me relax and maybe even forget the madness in my mind for a while. Well the universe had a different plan for me–I followed my intuition all the way over to the documentary page and discovered ‘Yoga Is’.

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I have been practicing yoga for over ten years. Once a week, sometimes more, sometimes less, but never have I fully committed to a daily yoga practice. This film reminded me of the magic of yoga, and my own ability to transform anything, especially suffering, into love, power and strength.

I have a thing for words–sometimes it’s a sentence or a quote of some kind that sticks with me after a film or a really good conversation. The word I took from the film is DEVOTION. I came across many definitions but this is my favorite: the act of binding yourself (intellectually or emotionally) to a course of action. 😉

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The image above is an example of lizard pose–my new favorite! Breathe into the tension, embrace the stillness, open up to your own magic! I’m madly in love with yoga in a completely different way than ever before. I deeply appreciate these poses and the guidance and support provided by my teachers.

I know that my answers are within me. I trust that they are patiently waiting for me to find them in the quiet corners of my spirit. I believe with my entire being that yoga will take me there over and over and over again, but it is up to me. My mat is always ready.

The timing could not be more perfect for a 30 day yoga challenge. I’m so excited, I could cry. I will be sharing random updates throughout my journey. Please feel free to share insight, inspiration or questions along the way.

Let the transformation begin…..

“I honor the place in you where Spirit lives
I honor the place in you which is
of Love, of Truth, of Light, of Peace,
when you are in that place in you,
and I am in that place in me, 
then we are One.”

Namaste,

L

Lady Monster Remedies~ Part 1

Could PMS symptoms be your bodies way of telling you that it needs something that it is not getting?

Based on everything that I have read and several of my own experiments, this is the conclusion that I have come to. You always know when it’s time to change up your habits; whether you listen to your body or not is a whole other story. I have put together a list of the major changes that have made a huge difference for me.

1. Exercise~ This is number one on my list for various reasons. The ways that exercise can help you to clear out the crazies during your cycle, is priceless. As if releasing endorphins, reducing body fat, lowering stress, and increasing energy levels are not enough to get you moving; a regular workout program simply boosts your self-esteem and fights off anxiety and depression.

2. Clean up your diet~ Caffeine, alcohol, salt and refined sugars trigger PMS symptoms. Omitting these from your diet or at least being mindful of the amount you consume will make a huge difference in your cycle. Choosing organic as often as possible is another big one for me. Toxic chemicals and pesticides do not create harmony in your body or your mind. Increasing the amount of leafy greens, whole grains, and fruits while decreasing your meat and dairy intake is another MUST!

3.  Water~ Drinking water flushes out toxins, speeds up your metabolism, helps organs to absorb nutrients much better, and assists in digestion. I try to drink 2.5-3 liters a day. It’s not always fun but as soon as it becomes a priority, it will become second nature.

4.  Vitamins and Minerals~ Calcium . Vitamin D. Magnesium. B-6

Research is showing that there is a connection between PMS and calcium deficiency symptoms. Our bodies cannot absorb calcium without the assistance of vitamin D and magnesium. Studies have also shown that women who struggle with PMS  have lower levels of magnesium when compared to women who do not struggle with PMS. Magnesium and calcium work together but have to be balanced correctly; a ratio of 1:1 is recommended. Magnesium aids in the absorption of and helps the body to metabolize calcium. These two minerals truly are partners in crime. All calcium and no magnesium weakens, if not negates the effectiveness of calcium. This essential mineral also will help with the reduction of water retention, mood swings, sugar cravings and breast tenderness. B-6 is essential for manufacturing dopamine, a mood neurotransmitter that your body cannot make on its own. Exceeding 100 milligrams per day can cause nerve toxicity, so I would advise eating foods rich in B-6 rather than taking a supplement.

5.  Yoga~This ancient spiritual practice simply is the cat’s meow as far as I’m concerned. If you’re looking for relief with your psychological and/or physical PMS symptoms, yoga must become a priority. Through deep breathing and yoga asanas, you are stretching and strengthening your body, mind and spirit. Yoga increases circulation, reduces stress, and will  help you to develop the level of self awareness that you will need to take incredible care of yourself on every level.

Resolutions

It’s New Year’s Eve and I feel compelled to write out some resolutions.

A fresh start, a new beginning…..entering into this new year with clear intention.

Before getting started on this list, I decided to take a moment to reflect. I have so much to be grateful for, so much to let go of and so much to bless. This year has challenged my thinking more than ever before. I have taken responsibility for my life and everything that is or is not working in it. This year I have truly discovered the meaning of ‘’growing’’ pains and that the unification of intent and imagination are the most powerful tools a girl could have in her bag of tricks.

This year I will stretch way out of my comfort zone and into as many magical moments as possible.

More Play—I’m talkin’ hoola hoops, bubbles, bike rides,  games, dancing for no reason at all, and an obscene amount of laughter!

Deepen My Yoga Practice—I have been practicing yoga for over ten years but have yet to take it to the level I’d like to. Quite honestly I have not put forth the effort to go that deep. I wasn’t ready but I’m ready now and I will hold myself accountable.

Adventure—Spontaneity, road trips, weekend getaways, un-charted territory, rivers, springs, lakes, mountain-tops, foreign languages, strange and unfamiliar spices, far-away lands….

Giving as much and as often as possible— Offering my time to an organization that I believe in or gifting a person in need. There is a much bigger picture and so many different ways I can be of service.

Green Smoothies in the morning—I have been wanting to take on this challenge for quite some time. I have all of the ingredients that I could possibly need to make this happen on a regular basis. It’s time to mix them up in the blender every morning and start a new routine.

Mindfulness—Putting new coping skills into practice, new problem solving techniques and new methods of communication.

I’m trying not to get carried away here. These are just a few from my list. What are some of yours?