to stay even-minded during pleasure and pain….

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i write because i have a world inside of me that won’t let me sleep until i release its messages and mysteries. i write because i have a deep desire to make connections with others and between things. i write because i have no choice but to write. i write because i believe beyond the shadow of a doubt that the closer i get to my own center, i may gift another with a bridge, a parachute or maybe a snorkel of some sort.

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“learning to let go should be learned before learning to get. life should be touched, not strangled. you’ve got to relax, let it happen at times, and let others move forward with it.” ~ ray bradbury

 

today i am moved to purge all of the little treasures that i have been collecting over the last few months. thankfully i have finally removed myself from the race against time. not to say i don’t get overwhelmed or cranky or flat out freaked out sometimes…but it is happening less and less. i get it now. time is an illusion designed to scare the shit out of us. no thank you! i’m more interested in finding my place in a vibration that lifts me to a higher state of being.

close your eyes and imagine a world that is yours. feel the importance of yourself. we are the agents of our own happiness. it really is quite simply up to you. i’m tired of hearing myself say, ”it’s easier said than done.” bullshit! these are the lies that we tell ourselves so that we can remain the same.

i’ve noticed that the more willing i am to ask myself uncomfortable questions. or shall is say, the more willing i become to answer them with fierce honesty, the more comfortable i become, period.

no matter how at ease i may have appeared over the years, it was a mask of survival that i designed before i knew up from down.  basically, i didn’t realize how unsafe i felt in this world until i started actually feeling safe in my own skin. i had no idea how much i tried to control outcomes and other people until i honestly evaluated my dysfunctions. i thought i was living as a spiritual warrior of some sort, but i neglected to bring god into the equation…so apparently my spirituality only existed in my mind.

 

”until your knees finally hit the floor you’re just playing at life, and on some level you’re scared because you know you’re just playing. the moment of surrender is not when life is over. it’s when it begins.” ~marianne wiliamson

 

we learn in yoga that the disease is in the mind, and that the goal is to become less addicted to outcomes; to stay even-minded during pleasure and pain. we discover that first, we are students, no matter how advanced we become at anything. we surrender to the ultimate truth that the only way we will ever transform is to practice, and the only way this will reach its highest manifestation, is by devotion. we realize that compassion for ourselves and others makes room for miracles. we feel the stillness and become less afraid of it. we breathe deeper and more often….and learn to truly honor our breath for being the carrier of life force energy– sustaining us, supporting us and carrying us to the next moment of complete and total surrender.

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our culture has taught us to complicate the shit out of things. you can choose to keep it simple.

so much love!!!!

xo, L

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A poem for you…

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truth is spoken. the energy starts to move. up through my belly and into my heart space. then to my throat. it tickles. i choke. to feel alive with you….this chaos is crazy. yet ironically the most honest thing I have ever done. i fall to the earth. only to be broken wide open. it feels like a drumbeat within the sky of my lines. lusting for love and freedom at the same time. licking each others wounds. losing track of time. only to discover that time does not exist at all. and we are but reflections of each others design. tiny drops of rainbow light. to be everything and nothing at the same time. i finally know peace, my love.

original content: @laurensuzanne.com

“Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.”

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be?”

“Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.”

” And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

~Marianne Williamson, A Return To Love

I read this book when I was 16 and again when I was 24.  I cried a lot both times. It was as if I could physically feel myself transformed by her words. As soon as truth is recognized something opens up; walls come crashing down, hearts open, tears fall, a seed is planted…

It took many more years of wrestling around with my shadow before I finally understood the depth of her message. This is a delicate process that needs to be trusted and respected. You can’t rush it any more than you can rush the growth of a tree. The sunshine and the rain are just as significant, and time certainly is not the enemy.