to stay even-minded during pleasure and pain….

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i write because i have a world inside of me that won’t let me sleep until i release its messages and mysteries. i write because i have a deep desire to make connections with others and between things. i write because i have no choice but to write. i write because i believe beyond the shadow of a doubt that the closer i get to my own center, i may gift another with a bridge, a parachute or maybe a snorkel of some sort.

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“learning to let go should be learned before learning to get. life should be touched, not strangled. you’ve got to relax, let it happen at times, and let others move forward with it.” ~ ray bradbury

 

today i am moved to purge all of the little treasures that i have been collecting over the last few months. thankfully i have finally removed myself from the race against time. not to say i don’t get overwhelmed or cranky or flat out freaked out sometimes…but it is happening less and less. i get it now. time is an illusion designed to scare the shit out of us. no thank you! i’m more interested in finding my place in a vibration that lifts me to a higher state of being.

close your eyes and imagine a world that is yours. feel the importance of yourself. we are the agents of our own happiness. it really is quite simply up to you. i’m tired of hearing myself say, ”it’s easier said than done.” bullshit! these are the lies that we tell ourselves so that we can remain the same.

i’ve noticed that the more willing i am to ask myself uncomfortable questions. or shall is say, the more willing i become to answer them with fierce honesty, the more comfortable i become, period.

no matter how at ease i may have appeared over the years, it was a mask of survival that i designed before i knew up from down.  basically, i didn’t realize how unsafe i felt in this world until i started actually feeling safe in my own skin. i had no idea how much i tried to control outcomes and other people until i honestly evaluated my dysfunctions. i thought i was living as a spiritual warrior of some sort, but i neglected to bring god into the equation…so apparently my spirituality only existed in my mind.

 

”until your knees finally hit the floor you’re just playing at life, and on some level you’re scared because you know you’re just playing. the moment of surrender is not when life is over. it’s when it begins.” ~marianne wiliamson

 

we learn in yoga that the disease is in the mind, and that the goal is to become less addicted to outcomes; to stay even-minded during pleasure and pain. we discover that first, we are students, no matter how advanced we become at anything. we surrender to the ultimate truth that the only way we will ever transform is to practice, and the only way this will reach its highest manifestation, is by devotion. we realize that compassion for ourselves and others makes room for miracles. we feel the stillness and become less afraid of it. we breathe deeper and more often….and learn to truly honor our breath for being the carrier of life force energy– sustaining us, supporting us and carrying us to the next moment of complete and total surrender.

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our culture has taught us to complicate the shit out of things. you can choose to keep it simple.

so much love!!!!

xo, L

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She Let Go

 

She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.

She let go of fear. She let go of the judgments.

She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head.

She let go of the committee of indecision within her.
She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely,
without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a
book on how to let go… She didn’t search the scriptures.
She just let go.

She let go of all of the memories that held her back.
She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward.
She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.
She didn’t promise to let go.
She didn’t journal about it.
She didn’t write the projected date in her day-timer.
She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper.
She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope.
She just let go.

She didn’t analyse whether she should let go.
She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter.
She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment.
She didn’t call the prayer line.
She didn’t utter one word.
She just let go.

No one was around when it happened.
There was no applause or congratulations.
No one thanked her or praised her.
No one noticed a thing.
Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.

There was no effort. There was no struggle.
It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad.
It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let it all be.
A small smile came over her face.
A light breeze blew through her.
And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.

~ Jennifer Eckert Bernau

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The Sacred Ache

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It’s been there for as long as I can remember; calling, begging me to let go, to believe, to surrender….

Sometimes it hurts and sometimes it takes my breath away.

Sometimes it feels like I’m trapped inside of the coldest winter and sometimes it feels like the sun warming my skin.

I didn’t ask for it, yet it follows me like a shadow into every single day and night.

My sacred ache reminds me every day that we have only just begun.

There is something higher, I can feel it in my blood.

Original content copyright, Lauren Suzanne 2013

Photo: Tomaas