“I choose to risk my significance….”

I will not die an unlived life.
I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
more accessible;
to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise.
I choose to risk my significance,
to live so that which came to me as seed
goes to the next as blossom,
and that which came to me as blossom,
goes on as fruit.

~ Dawna Markova

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A Profound Kind of Human

I just listened to a pretty penetrating youtube clip– a tribute to Carl Jung read by Alan Watts on accepting the darkness of Self and Others. Let me just start out by saying, WOAH!

Right when I start to feel ants in my pants, like I’m ready to evolve, I’m ready for more sophisticated information to rock me into a higher state of being, the universe delivers it right to my doorstep! I came across this gem while checking my facebook feed this morning, and have spent the last hour or so contemplating exactly what it means to accept oneself, completely. If it is true that we cannot change anything until we first accept it, then acceptance needs to make its way to the top of my to do list!

“I myself need to stand in the arms of my own kindness.”

I have come to understand that anxiety, depression and stress are all symptoms of a spiritual crisis. If we loved, accepted and honored ourselves, then these issues would be non-issues in our world of balanced, mindful and integrated self-ness. You don’t need to be a vegan, gluten-free, chanting, chakra aligning guru to get this. Just look in the mirror and try to see yourself with forgiving eyes. Forgiveness for what you might ask? Forgiveness for your failed attempt at getting it right and having it all figured out by now is a good place to start.

“Embrace all of it–your hormones, your darkness, your divinity.”

The quote above is an original quote by yours truly–it is actually the last line of my bio on my website (laurensuzanne.com). My work is rooted in the concept of loving and accepting the whole self…..and embracing the fullness of the female experience, unapologetically. My Lady Monster project never would have seen the light of day if I had not first accepted my awful PMS. I couldn’t have a sense of humor about the evil queen side of myself until I loved her into the light of creative expression.

This is universal wisdom in its simplest form.  According to Jung: ”Simple things are always the most difficult. In actual life, it requires the greatest art, to be simple. And so acceptance of oneself is the essence of the moral problem.”

Today I am grateful for the time that I carved out to write this post. I now have a more focused intention; to be a profound kind of human in all that I do, in all that I am, and in all that I say.

Love and fireflies,