We Have Come To Be Danced


We have come to be danced
not the pretty dance
not the pretty pretty, pick me, pick me dance
but the claw our way back into the belly
of the sacred, sensual animal dance
the unhinged, unplugged, cat is out of its box dance
the holding the precious moment in the palms
of our hands and feet dance

We have come to be danced
not the jiffy booby, shake your booty for him dance
but the wring the sadness from our skin dance
the blow the chip off our shoulder dance
the slap the apology from our posture dance

We have come to be danced
not the monkey see, monkey do dance
one, two dance like you
one two three, dance like me dance
but the grave robber, tomb stalker
tearing scabs & scars open dance
the rub the rhythm raw against our souls dance

WE have come to be danced
not the nice invisible, self conscious shuffle
but the matted hair flying, voodoo mama
shaman shakin’ ancient bones dance
the strip us from our casings, return our wings
sharpen our claws & tongues dance
the shed dead cells and slip into
the luminous skin of love dance

We have come to be danced
not the hold our breath and wallow in the shallow end of the floor dance
but the meeting of the trinity: the body, breath & beat dance
the shout hallelujah from the top of our thighs dance
the mother may I?
yes you may take 10 giant leaps dance
the Olly Olly Oxen Free Free Free dance
the everyone can come to our heaven dance

We have come to be danced
where the kingdom’s collide
in the cathedral of flesh
to burn back into the light
to unravel, to play, to fly, to pray
to root in skin sanctuary
We have come to be danced

by Jewel Mathieson

Art by Janet Self


Monday, Bloody Monday!

Apparently I still have some work to do, my loves. A violent and painful period this month is telling the tales of unresolved history that continues to boil in my blood. I’m not surprised by this at all- it makes perfect sense.

I had a pretty powerful breakthrough in therapy last week, and one of the many thing that i discovered is that I am standing in my own way. I have been avoiding the exposure of my deepest emotional wounds just as much as I have been denying myself complete and total commitment to the life of my dreams. Every day since then I have felt so incredibly free- it’s like a fairy dust bubble exploded inside of my soul.

I no longer wish to be a walking contradiction; although it was quite amusing at times. No, I’m showing up fully for my path, my purpose, my work. Radical change inspires radical results. My will and desire are equally met now with affirmative, daily action.



The Fire That Burns Within

photo 2 copy

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I’ve got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of
history’s shame
I rise
Up from past that’s rooted in pain
I rise
I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide”

~Maya Angelou

This poem and my painting go together like peas and carrots!

My interpretation of the second chakra is displayed in the painting above as the fire that burns within–allowing us to create and maintain a healthy and pleasurable life. This energy center  is associated with sexuality, sensuality, creativity and desire.

When we develop the ability to nurture all aspects of ourselves, we can truly live passionate lives. I have noticed that my life transforms the most when I start asking myself the right questions.

Happy Friday!



Original art @Lauren Suzanne 2012

SXSW 2013

My city has been taken over by hundreds of thousands of people who can barely drive let alone walk, but I’ll take it ’cause the music is making my world sparkle.


We caught a pretty great performance by Heartless Bastards last night at Jo’s Coffee on South Congress. If you’re ever in Austin for SXSW, this spot always has a fantastic lineup of free shows and their Iced Cafe Mocha’s are divine.


I spent the entire day Friday on my bike-hopping around from one venue to the next, soaking up the Texas sun, and enjoying the wind against my skin. First stop was the bike shop to pick up a new lock then I headed down to G&S Lounge on South 1st  to check out an event that my beautiful Spirit Mama was hosting- a series of acoustic sets by female singer-songwriters from Texas. I haven’t told you about my Spirit Mama yet and there’s no way to cover all the back story right now for sure; let’s just say that I plan on writing a book about her one day and it will be called, ”Spirit Mama-The Woman Who Taught Me How To Fly”.


So I enjoyed a few sets by some pretty incredible and talented women who have been rockin’ this city for many years. The music was drenched with history and spirit; I felt really lucky to be there. G&S Lounge is split into two separate venues- in between sets I heard  a wildly unique sound coming from the other side, I scooted on over to a packed room full of beautiful music lovers, squished together like speechless sardines. A brilliant band of Swedish sisters playing Americana, Bluegrass, Rock n’ Roll and Country style music-blowing the roof right off this joint! Their performance was so spectacular, I felt compelled to catch their 10:30 show at El Mercado that very same night. Baskery was the highlight of SXSW as far as I’m concerned!

I really do adore this city and quite honestly don’t spend enough time enjoying the unique features that attract people from all over the world. I took this opportunity to BE a tourist in my own city and photograph the images that have always stood out to me and continue to make me feel so lucky to call this magnificent place my home.


dream a little dream…

”There is no single effort more radical in its potential for saving the world than a transformation of the way we raise our children.”

~Marianne Williamson

As I search for ways out of PMS, I still have to acknowledge how real and completely insane it can be. If only I had known more about my body and my hormones when I was a young girl. I can’t help but to wonder how different things could have been for me; growing into my big girl britches gracefully, discovering my femininity with pride and excitement.

This needs to be a program that can reach young girls going through all of these changes so that they can care for themselves and experience this journey with a deeper sense of connection and knowledge. Knowledge is Power! Damn straight! I am holding space for the dream of a world where girls grow into their bodies with strength, support and conscious awareness.

Who knows… I very well may be a part of the manifestation of this dream. I think I do be that!



My Beloved Buddha Bowl


I have enjoyed many different interpretations of this dish over the years but no one does it quite like THE STEEPING ROOM, a local tea house, here in my incredible city.

I was born with the gift of food wisdom; I can taste something once and figure out how to make it exact or even better. I simply understand food! So this is my version of one of the most divine dishes on the planet!


2 cups of red rice

1 pkg. of extra firm tofu

4 large leaves of swiss chard

1 sweet potato

1/2 teaspoon tumeric

1/2 teaspoon curry powder

1/2 teaspoon paprika

1 whole yellow onion

5 cloves of chopped garlic

Peanut sauce

1 inch chunk of peeled and chopped ginger

1 clove of garlic

2 heaping tablespoons of peanut butter

1/4 cup of apple cider vinegar

3 tablespoons of Bragg Liquid Aminos  (you can substitute Tamari or Soy Sauce)

1 tablespoons of water

a few pinches of cayenne

Sriracha sauce (optional on the side)


Bring 4 cups of water to a boil, stir in 2 cups of rice, add a pinch of sea salt, lower heat and let simmer for 20 minutes. In a medium saute pan, caramelize onions then add 5 cloves of chopped garlic, cut pieces of swiss chard and two splashes of bragg liquid aminos. I personally do not like my greens cooked for too long. Cut tofu into chunks and pan fry with a splash of olive oil in a separate pan, add a few dashes of liquid aminos to this, as well. I typically cut my sweet potatoes up into bite sized pieces and roast them for 45 minutes, coat them with olive oil, dash of cayenne, paprika, tumeric, and curry seasoning. Add all sauce ingredients into a blender or food processor and serve on the side to drizzle over the complete dish.

Hope you love it! ; )